Makeup

Okay, so this is something that has been bugging me since I was twelve and figured out how to use the internet. Do women and girls from most western countries really apply that much makeup? I'm from Malaysia, which is in Southeast Asia, and I actually grew up wearing makeup. I mean, not everyday or anything. I was trained in Indian classical dance which meant that during stage performances, I was required to wear a TON of makeup. And jewelry. And hair extensions. I hated every minute of it! Dancing on stage in the heat while buried under all of that weight? It was one of the reasons I stopped dancing! When I asked my mom why I had to wear so much of it, she said that it was to make you appear more noticeable to the audience. So growing up, I thought that only performers and the people on TV wore makeup.

But as I grew up, I started reading all these teen fiction novels and I realised that in some parts of the world, little girls wore makeup everyday! I mean, at 15, I was actually sneaking into my mom's dresser, trying on all her stuff, and wiping it away as soon as I was done staring at myself in the mirror; and these little girls were going to school like that?

I've hear that only people with low self esteem wear makeup, and I think that's absolutely crap. I'm in college, and the only reason I dare to wear eyeliner sometimes to class is cause I wear glasses, and it doesn't really show. Yeah. I for one think that it takes a very high level of confidence to wear makeup. Wearing makeup makes you noticeable. It makes people stare at you. Sometimes when I wear my lonely eyeliner, I get so paranoid that I start to imagine people whispering things about me to each other. Maybe it's different in other countries or maybe I'm just a really weird person, but I honestly applaud those of you girls out there who are not afraid of wearing makeup.

The One

You know when people tell you to stop living in a fairy tale; that the perfect person is just a figment of our romanticized imagination, there comes a point when we start to feel that maybe they're right. Maybe we do expect too much from life. Maybe we do watch too many romance films. Maybe we are indeed blinded by the pictures that every romance author has painted for us. Maybe they aren't cynics, jaded by their own bitterness, but instead realists, who have experienced far more in life than we have.

I have to ask though, aren't we all worth it? And I'm not just talking about The One. I'm talking about all the relationships we build and break throughout our lives. Our friends, our mentors, our non-blood-related siblings. Are we just supposed to just settle, because we might never find a special connection, and we're too afraid that we'll end up spending our lives alone? 

I find that our friends, the really good ones, not the ones we say hi to as we pass by, they are supposed to mean something to us. I would like to have ONE friend that I could really talk to about anything at all, and not be afraid of judgement. I'd like someone who would be there for me no matter what, even if I try to push them away, or if I've hurt them. I realize that this seems to be a very selfish and idealistic way of thinking, but I would be wholeheartedly prepared to reciprocate. If such a special person exists, I would never let go of them.

I'm young. I know nothing of the world. I still think that people are good no matter how many times they(we) prove me wrong. But most of all, I believe it is not wrong to wait for that person because I'd rather spend my entire life, searching for them rather than spending an discontented life with anyone else.